WHAT DIDN’T GO WELL IN 2018 ?
I joined a gym and stopped paying my trainer
There was a point in my blessed life where I was not working out at all, decided to change it and hired ultra runner/boxer/super friendly and kind trainer Jeff. I shelled out lots of cash seeing him 3 times a week and working my ass off. It was rewarding.
Then Jeff and his wife Edna (also an ultra runner) decided to open a gym, and I figured instead of working out with Jeff one on one, I would save some cash and workout with him in the group classes.
This was a bad move. I should have stayed training with Jeff and shelling out the cash.
I barely go to the classes Y'all. I switched up on something that was working, and it was foolish.I’ve made a mistake like this before when I was taking forever to jump to Squarespace. I’m going to get back to training, it was working. Until then though I will just keep pushing to make the group fitness classes.
Twist Your Hair Music Video still not complete
“Twist Your Hair” is the breakout single of amateur rapper “stephtalksproper” a satirical music project I’ve been working on where yours truly enters the music industry with zero music experience. I've been working on this project for a long time and its one of the most challenging works I'm making, but I can explain more of that another time.
So I recorded this rap song titled "Twist Your Hair," and I’ve been wanting to make a music video for it but it been so hard. We've had to change up crew members, rethink locations and the biggest part of the mess is that in the middle of planning prepping and actually filming this project. I have lost not only my grandmother but my aunt. Grief is tied to this project, and it makes it hard to, but I will make this video dammit!. You know when you hear artists put their souls into the work and they feel the work blah blah blah, I see what they mean now with this project. It’s heavy, and that's weird because this is the "fun project" of my whole practice... My friend LaurynBlythe agreed to direct this video for me and has been so patient and supportive. We are almost there, and I pray that its completed in 2019. I'm also excited to share the project with you in its entirety when its time.
WHAT SUPRISED ME IN 2018 ?
Grief is the big surprise of 2018. I don't even know what grief means, I understand that idea but how you go through it, manage it, define it, be in it all that therapy sounding stuff.. yeah I don't know about any of that.
I lost my grandma the end of 2017 and buried her the beginning of the year and then unexpectedly lost my aunt. It was all sudden and unexpected, and it sucks. I will probably spend 2019 learning how to manage, identify and all that other tough stuff that comes with loss. I don't want to contribute to much time to it though, but I will spend some time in it. All the blessings I’ve been given this year though has been an excellent and welcomed distraction.
I’ve had a few personal relationships also shift. Nothing is good or bad it's just different. I like change, so its okay to me as nothing lasts forever. Though I did get kicked out of my best friends wedding, so I guess that is pretty bad. It makes for a good story over chicken tenders and champagne though.
You know I always pick words, themes, and shit and I don't know if I still adhere to the word(s), but I do always keep the word(s) in the back of my mind.
My word last year was MONEY, and I didn't make any money though. But I mean.. I guess I did alright. So there is that. but I did okay. If I think about money as opportunity or experience as currency though I did well with that, so boom, see what I did there you can frame anything to your advantage #selfcare.
I’m still thinking about money though, because…I'm all about securing the bag. Does money make the world go around? Is it everything? Yes.. yes it is. LOL
I’m excited for bigger and better with the new year; I will be prioritizing my whole being and not overloading myself and also recognizing that all of this is easier said than done. I understand though sometimes it can't be helped, I'm not trying to overload myself with projects either. I love to work on many things at once, but even a playa like me can get bombarded. Its all about that time management though and being vigilant with my calendar and studio practice.
I’m so thankful that you’ve read about this, my year. Making notes and writing about this has been so helpful for me. I’m going to do it again for 2019! If you haven't created your State of the Union ( I stole this name from Jason and Caroline Zook btw) I encourage you to document your goods, bads, and surprises. You don’t have to share it all with me you can keep it to yourself. It's your world boo, and you can do whatever you want!